When you finally make a decision to move forward it feels exactly as you imagine. Yes, you feel like you have stepped of the ledge, but it only lasts a couple of weeks. You experience ups and downs. I kept saying it felt as if I was on a rollercoaster, but the good kind. Sometimes I felt the exhilaration of rising, and then I would experience a crash and wonder what I was doing and why.
I felt like I had left the Mothership, left “normal,” and it was disorientating. After eight months I wonder how I would go back to a normal life.
For most of my career, I lived in two worlds. Or did I? The artist and the businessman. My favorite artist Rene Magritte painted a famous image called Son of Man that I perceive represents this feeling of separation of business and art.
I am both things. I am a businessman, and I am an artist. Those things are not independent, although society has coined the term “Starving Artist” that is a false premise, and at Two River Creative we know how false that narrative is – people want to support artists. They want to live with, read, or listen to pieces of art that inspire them or just make them happy.
Change is uncomfortable, and I’m feeling all of it. My show, that you are personally invited to, is a representation of that discomfort and of the comfort that comes from creating.
People talk about transition like it’s a single moment, a decision point, a switch flipped. That’s not how it works. Transition is something you feel in your bones for months or years before you do anything about it. And even once you do, you second-guess it. You resist. You stand on the edge of it and try to talk yourself out of it.
What’s a transition you’ve been avoiding? What would it take to finally move?
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